I’ve finished the peacock painting I've been working on the past 3* months. I'm happy she's done and I can finally post something new after too many months of nothing. I worked hard to not compromise her quality for wanting to get her done before December's end.
This painting developed when I was sketching out some possible ideas from photo references. I was in the beginning of reigniting my erotic zone of thought and vision for a new show. I wanted to begin with something simple (it wasn’t), approachable and mostly, something I could use to promote the subsequent work which would most likely be banned from most social media and marketing options due to (intended but not necessarily promised) pornographic content. So far I've not painted a cock just peacocks.
The peacock feathers were an attempt at establishing a representation of "The Look", a concept from Being and Nothingness by Jean Paul-Sartre. I've been fascinated by the concept from the moment I learned about it in college philosophy class. It's turned up in my art over the years and I keep going back to it. It's simply the object-subject dynamic. There will always be an object to look at as there will be a subject to look and then there will be an emotional response. Think voyeur-exhibitionist or audience-performer. Sartre goes on to describe how when we become conscious of the fact that we are being looked at, we become aware that we are in fact, objects to the other. This, of course, affects the way we view and thus behave for ourselves and the other. Very simplified version there.
I don't follow into Sartre's depths of existential despair but this concept of looking, observing and the interaction of the object and the subject has often caught my attention and intrigue. We look and pass through momentary changes of emotion based on that "look" of and by others all the time. I am mostly intrigued by the performance - the "show" - and the willful exchanges that come with that more than the peeking voyeur exchange and emotion. I think Sartre sits in that domain more, the voyeur peeking through the keyhole and the "subject" and "object" getting caught and the emotion aroused by that catch. I'm more interested in the examination of a willful look exchange.
When it clicked that the peacock feathers looked like eyes, I thought it would be the best representation of this look concept surrounding this nice, latex shined ass, which is the objectified focal point. Within that objectification space, it is valued (or judged) by the subject. The value is relative to the development of the subject's psyche but the act of placing a value on the object is human nature. The moment we look, we emotionally respond. That can be a mighty moment.
Looks like "Showtime" to me!
*correction from 2 months. i went back to my records and I began her early November. why is time so quick in hindsight?